Shifting my mind into 2nd gear now

Anyway, I think I'm just gonna head back to Fairbanks this fall for another year. See how it goes. I think it'd be easier than trying to get into a different university right now.

I started doing the material in the book "College Algebra Demystified", and started going through an old edition of a book for CS311. It's trippy. I think I spent about two hours trying to figure out how to implement a binary search to find the maximum value in a group of numbers without sorting the data first. What made this exercise a head trip is that a binary search usually operates on sorted data.

Being rusty or not having a lot of knowledge about a binary search didn't help. I warmed up with a few simple exercises on recursion, that the book gave me, and then devled into this problem, and by the time I finished I was feeling pretty good, like old times.

My goals academically right now are
- Study Algebra, and pre-calculus, before heading back to college in the fall. Pass these classes with either an A or a B. Will be studying out of the Demystified series of books.
- Retake Anthropology. Actually pass this class this time. SHould be easy. Just don't get caught up in all the stupid bullshit like last time. Haha.
- Possibly retake English 111. Get my GPA up.
- Take 4 new classes over the 2010-2011 year.
- Shift my brain back into gear for learning computer languages and software concepts. That basically means reading and programming and studying.

If I get As and Bs in all these classes, I will have an awesome GPA (like 3.2 or 3.4) according to the GPA calculators.

Then again, I could just go back to Fairbanks

And try my hand as an adult.

Gonna do this way differently though.

Currently wondering if I should just stick it out with them, transfer up there, work like 16 hrs a week and live on campus.

No idea.

But I know I need to get my brain back in gear math and computer wise.

So I just realized how I can get out of this god forsaken state

And that's college.

I'm stuck here until I get my GPA back up to a respectable level.

I just checked my transcript. I think they took off the F on my English 213 course, which puts me at a 2.2, if I'm reading this all correctly.

The only bad thing is this means that maybe I won't be going back to UAF, which is a pretty good school.

But then, sometimes you just need to make changes in life to go anywhere. Sometimes rapid, sometimes big ones. If I had never been to college in the first place, I'd never be where I am now.

I might need to sit a semester out though. I think registration might be closed.

Slow but strong

I really don't like working in the gym when there's a lot of people in there. I feel like I'm being watched - paraded around in people's minds silently as they gauge my strength in comparison to themselves, or just look in awe.

Maybe they don't care. I see a lot of people doing a lot of different things. I see skinny guys using machines, thinking they know how to not be skinny anymore. I see big guys using free weights, knowing what they need to do to get big, and doing it. I see people whose routine seems to consist entirely of see machine -> do a set -> see another machine -> do a set. It's pretty disorganized. I try not to make fun of these people, misguided as most of them seem to be. The reason is simple. If you're in the gym doing it all wrong, you're still already doing more than half the nation is right now (A lot of our problems with healthcare are caused by the fact that half the nation is obese).

Sometimes, people get it right. Or half right.

I finish cranking out my squats (225 for reps) on the smith machine and start to do my overhead presses (135 or so) when a guy asks if I'm using the bench. I say no. So he takes my smith machine and starts doing bench press with the weight I'm pressing over my head. Then his friends come over. They finished their sets pretty quickly so I wasn't too mad about it. Actually got to talking to them and how I take my sweet time with the weights. That's when the big guy told me that I'm "slow but strong". I'm still not sure if this is supposed to be an insult (i'm slow) or a compliment (i'm strong). Maybe it was just an observation.

But the point stands. You do something right or impressive in the gym, and people will notice. If enough people notice, they'll start talking.

I built a reputation in High School, even though I never intended to. Part of this was because when I was doing weight training there, I was pretty strong. People talked. People who I didn't even know knew that the short, fat, curly haired dorky kid was pretty strong. Among other things. Like, that I was also a total showoff. And then this short, skinny kid named Tyler took my spotlight the year after. Frankly I was glad.

It's not that I don't mind the limelight. I just want it on my terms.

Gone a day without games so far

And it's boring.

It's a hobby I wished I'd treated better as a child. Unfortunately, it's an addiction for me, and whenever I start I neglect everything else. While it's easy to sell things to a pawn shop like a PS2 and Xbox, there's still flash games. Something I just need to ocndition myself to stay away from.

Next step is to spend less idle time at a computer, browsing forums.

And to sell my desktop. I don't need it anymore.

But I need to put windows 7 on it first.

It's still a gaming rig. It should have an OS geared for that.

Booyeah!

Added 20lbs to deadlift. Feels great but its tough.

Had a friend tell his gf "look at this kid" as I started my third set (245lbs). Such a wonderful feeling.

Also. No longer need to do dips with taking off weight. Also a wonderful feeling.

Totally killed my forearms today as well. Also a wonderful feeling.

It's been a great day,

Deloading is done

I can now start ramping up weight again.

This is gonna be so fun!