Problems solved. Worries eliminated.

I am undergoing a massive restructuring in my life.

In fact, you could say that I am tearing down the walls, kicking out the demons, and massively restructuring my life. It pretty much started when I read part a self-help book that showed me how to be happy. The process is simple.

Essentially, when life gives you something to be frustrated about, you find something about the situation to be happy about. I know it sounds strange, but it works. The author commented on how one time he had a flat tire, so he had to go out and fix it. He changed his mindset by relfecting on the fact that he was able to get a little bit of fresh air while doing so!

When I tried this myself, the first week or so was hard. It's hard to think of anything good from a bad situation when you're used to being fed shit in your life. But here's the thing. You find something, no matter how trivial it might be ("Damn. I had to deal with that asshole of a customer. Well, at least the next one was nice." Or "Damnit. I forgot my gym shorts. Well, at least I get to drive some more and listen to music as I do so."). And it works wonders. ou go from being frustrated to being joyful. You forget the negative and move onto the positive.

If you are to have any success in life, you need to think positively. While I always have been optimistic, this technique has taken it to a whole new level for me. I started doing this, reflexively, for all the other drek that's been handed to me in my life, and it has done a lot for unraveling the knots inside my head.

Restructuring this blog is the next step. I've taken down all the posts that convey any negative thoughts. I'm gonna purge them. Purge them from my mind. From the internet. From the public eye. Thus becoming a better person.

This is only one aspect of several things I am doing.

I'm also quitting smoking.

I'm also taking up weightlifting (again).

There's a funny thing about that one.

I'm about 20lbs overweight. I wasn't happy. So I joined a gym to lose the weight with the idea that they have free weights that I can play around with, ended up adding 10lbs to my squat on the third day of weight lifting and realized that it wasn't weighing too much that was making me unhappy, it was being a scrawny bastard. So right now my goal is to just get stronger. I know size will come so I'm not worried about that. Maybe when I'm stronger than I am now I'll revisit my body composition, but I realize there's absolutely no point in being skinny and not being able to overpower someone. So strength is now my goal, even though it wasn't to begin with.

And I'm on a much better routine than I was before, and I know that if I follow it, the strength will come. Just give me six months, or a year, or two. It is going to be so awesome when I get back to college because I will actually have the correct mindset by then!

I have so very much to look forward to in this life!